An artist’s depiction of my heart today.
I hate goodbyes, I hate them so. Even with acquaintances I get sentimental. It’s mind boggling to me that in less than 3 weeks I’ll be home. WHEN DID THAT HAPPEN?! I feel like I blinked and now my semester in Spain is over. Of course looking back, I’ve done a lot, and it’s actually been a pretty substantial amount of time, but right now all I can think is “where did the time go!” Yesterday we had our last Perspectives and it was about going home and adjusting to life back in the States, and it felt like only a few weeks ago Claire had been there welcoming us telling us how to adjust to being here.
It’s very bittersweet on the one hand I’m super excited to see the apple of my eye and my pride and joy, Snoopy (my dog). On the other I’m sad to be leaving Europe, Spain, Madrid. And just when I was starting to open myself up to my host dog! Today was the last day of my internship, and as you all know (probably not, I don’t even think my mom consistently reads my posts) I was kinda harsh on them before. Well, let me clarify, I suggested ways in which the organization as a whole could improve. I’ve warmed up significantly more to the store I work(ed) at, and was pretty bummed to be leaving. My boss Carlos, is a pretty rad guy and we’ve bonded so much in these last few weeks. As I was leaving I could feel my throat tightening up. Damn you feelings! And it got me thinking, how the heck am I gonna deal with leaving even more consistent and closer friends I’ve made here?
I guess it’s time to pull out that cheesy quote: “Don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened” Or some crap, I’m too ashamed about using it to actually look it up. I am so grateful and fortunate to have had this experience and all the other little ones throughout my time here that although I’m pretty sad, I’m also very hopeful that this is just the first in a series of amazing opportunities the future holds.
P.S. I don’t even know if that works for blogs but whatevs, stay tuned I still have a few more posts to write and things to complain about!